Alecia really struck a nerve in me when she said, “But honestly, I can get so caught up in chasing my dreams that I forget all about the Giver.”
Umm… hello! This is totally me! I’m struggling to balance it all. I’m tired. I’m frustrated & I’m overwhelmed. Okay, there, I said it. It’s out there. I don’t have it all together, even if it looks like I do!
As I’ve said before, I have a very full plate, so trying to fit one more thing on it, is near impossible. My heart is wanting to blog daily, but my life doesn’t seem to allow for it. I have a career and a half that keeps me busy enough, along with a family, and a home to care for… how do I balance it all?
Then I read Alecia’s post today & a light bulb when on in my head. When I am weakest, He is strongest. I have read the verse from 2 Corinthians 12:9 so many times: “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
After 30 something years of memorizing that verse, the truth behind it is just now coming to light for me:
The more I decrease, the more God increases.
As I deplete my own abilities, it enlarges God’s abilities.
As I tire of go, go, going, God delights in me rest, rest, resting.
As I give up, God fights for me.
Only when I feel I have nothing left, can He fill me up again-with all of Him & none of me.
It’s in my emptiness that I find completeness in Him!
Here I am, chasing this writing dream, and here God is, leading the way. However, the lines that too often blur for me, are how much I am pursuing my dream on my own & how much HE is asking me to pursue! It’s easy to blur those lines with the kind of passion I have. However, at this time in my life, writing is not my only responsibility! My full-time job, the “side” business I run with my hubby, helping raise my stepson & caring for our home are all my biggest responsibilities right now. That being said, it’s very important for me to stay in tune with the dream God’s placed on my heart, and keep it in perspective with where I am, and where He will take me. Where He will take me, may not look like my life looks today. However, today, where I am & where this dream is, requires wise stewardship of my time, energy, emotions & priorities.
‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things;
I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’
Matthew 24:21 NIV
It’s in these times of weakness that He truly is the strongest. I love that! What a beautiful reminder that I really don’t need to “have it all together” in order for Him to use me!
“My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart you, God, will not despise.”
Psalm 51:17 NIV