Lately, it feels as if I’m wandering in the desert like the Israelites did: discontent & questioning God’s plans for their (my) dreams.
As I pour my heart out to Him, seeking His direction & peace in the midst of my discontentment & misery, I hear Him whisper to my heart:
“This is your desert. I am leading you to the Promised Land.”
Six months ago, I took a leap of faith & started walking the dream God placed on my heart: writing. During this time, I have watched Him open doors for me in ways I could never imagine. Yet my heart is restless for more. My heart longs to lay aside my current career, to solely focus on the business my husband & I run together, to do more writing & to have a baby.
I’m tired. I’m weary. My heart isn’t in this place any longer & I’m ready for my dreams to unfold into what I call, “The Promised Land”
So I ask God, “Why the desert? Why the hot, dry, miserable heat of the desert? Why not the Promised Land… now?”
Philippians 4:11 comes to mind: “I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances.“
Ahh there’s that word, “content”
See, the problem with the Israelites & their time in the desert was ATTITUDE.
God had delivered them from Egypt & the rule of Pharaoh & set them on a journey to the Promised Land. Their attitudes created the 40-year wait they had in the desert; not God. They grumbled. They were impatient. They were angry. They missed the familiarity of their past & as a result of their attitudes, they made decisions that affected their journey. Their attitudes extended their time in the desert & for many, it meant they never got to see the Promised Land with their own eyes. They gave up and gave in to the sins & attitudes of the world & it stole their Promised Land experience.
I don’t want that! I don’t want to be so consumed with complaining & grumbling my way to the Promised Land, that I forfeit my own entrance into the dreams God has for me.
I want to enjoy my journey to the Promised Land, not just get there. It’s not the dream that God wants me to focus on, it’s the journey with Him that matters most.
Luke 16:10 says, “If you are faithful in little things, you will be faithful in large ones.”
If God has planted a dream in my heart, then before I can achieve that dream I must prove to be faithful with the journey I’m on right here & now.
If I can’t be trusted with the mundane things in my life today, how I can be trusted with the beauty of a dream tomorrow?
Jesus, help me as I walk this desert valley,
to keep my eyes on You & the dreams you’ve planted in my heart.
Help me to be ever mindful of the blessings
you have poured into my life & to never take them for granted.
Forgive me for my grumbling, disbelief, lack of trust & impatience.
Thank you for faithfully reminding me
that you are orchestrating the tapestry of my life perfectly:
You’re moving mountains & changing hearts, but mostly changing my own heart.
Draw me closer to you & birth in me a deep contentment for you alone,
So our journey together will be seasoned with joy & not grumbling.
I am so grateful for the opportunity to be part of three amazing writing communities.
Won’t you join me over at the blogs of three of my sweat friends?