My Heart, His Words

Let the Words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your site, O Lord.


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So I Wait

a no today often means a yes is on the way

Anyone who knows me, knows the biggest dream of my heart is to be a mother, so I keep reminding myself that God is using this time of waiting to move mountains before He releases His little angel into our care.  As much as I cling to that hope, and God’s promise to grant the desires of my heart, I’d be lying if I didn’t tell you that I wake up each morning with a sadness for what is to come, yet has not arrived.

These days I am clinging to Psalm 27:13:
“I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the Lord
In the land of the living.”

So I Wait.

I am daily reminded of God’s goodness & faithfulness.

I talk to a sweet friend who experienced infertility for many years before having 4 children of her own. Another dear friend of mine thought having a baby was part of God’s plan, yet instead she was called to be a word mama and years later became the proud mama to an adopted 20 year old young lady! A new friend struggled with infertility and adoption, and is on this journey of waiting right along side me.

The point? I am not alone and neither are you!

Many of us are waiting together, so I want to whisper to your heart: the journey of waiting doesn’t mean you’re doing something wrong.

Did you catch that?

Just because God doesn’t give us our “yes” right now, doesn’t mean we’re doing anything wrong, or that we’re failing some test we think He’s giving us.  Life is simply not designed to be viewed with the natural eye.  Jesus says in Matthew 11:15He who has ears to hear, let him hear.” 

My understanding of this scripture is not that it means to “listen up”, rather it means to “tune in” to His heart for us; to hear His voice for us, to follow His call on us, and to have His ears in all circumstances of our lives. To be ONE with The One Who’s heart beats for us and Who longs to give us all good things. (Matthew 7:11 NLT)

A “no” today, often means a “yes” is on the way.

I look back on my life and how God answered my prayers with firm “no’s”.  At the time I couldn’t understand why He said “no”, but now I see more clearly and can truly embrace with confidence that His timing is perfect, even when it’s not mine and even though I may not understand.

So I Wait.

 “But those who wait on the Lord
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint.”.
Isaiah 40:31 NKJV

Friend, whatever you are waiting for, trust the One who planted the desire in your heart, and hold fast to the hope that in His perfect time He will grant the desires of your heart.  In the meantime, keep walking this journey and keep being YOU!

love satin2

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A Priceless Treasure

priceless treasure

Amidst the lies from Hollywood, television, magazines and social media, we often lose site of this one truth:

We are Priceless Treasures, Ransomed by the blood of Jesus.

We get caught up trying to please others, in one way or the other, and forget that Jesus is the only One Who was pleased with us enough to pay the ultimate ransom to set us free from the lies that bind us.

Over the years I have heard a recurring theme from woman around the world.  We’re all struggling to embrace Truth about these earthen vessels we’ve been given!

The Bible says in 2 Corinthians 4:7, “But this beautiful treasure is contained in us—cracked pots made of earth and clay—so that the transcendent character of this power will be clearly seen as coming from God and not from us.”

We are Priceless Treasures!

Perfection isn’t what makes a treasure priceless, it’s creator does! The care put into crafting something; the passion and love contained in each stroke, bend, or melt. The time and sacrifice of the creator makes the unique one-of-a-kind treasure priceless.

Jesus, as our Creator, is the Beholder of beautiful, and when He says, “It is good” He means it.

When we reject His truth about us, we make a mockery of Him.  By embracing the lies, we are telling Him that what He did for us on the Cross, the ransom He paid for us, wasn’t enough; that He should have done more! {that’s a painful realization!}

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We may have been lied to from the time we were children; told we were lazy, wouldn’t amount to anything, or that we were ugly.

We may have been wounded in ways no one, or few people know.

We may still be embracing the lies spoken over us, but we have a choice, right here and now.

We can either continue embracing the lies of the enemy, or we can surrender those lies to the Savior & embrace His truth!

We are Priceless Treasures

Jesus didn’t pay the ultimate ransom for trash, He paid it for treasure: for you and for me. He paid it because He saw a vessel He could use for his glory. A vessel, cracked with the frailty of humanity, yet when fully yielded to Him is Priceless & Pleasing in His sight. Through our cracks and imperfections, the Creator shines His light in the most beautiful ways. 2 Corinthians 12:9-11

Whatever lies you have held on to about who you are, what you are, or how you look, now is your time to surrender them to the Savior & embrace His truth:

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL

YOU ARE CHERISHED

YOU ARE LOVED

YOU ARE A PRICELESS TREASURE

love satin2

Note: The graphic I created, as well as the theme of this blog post was inspired by the words shared with me by my sweet friend Ashley

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Journey to Rest (Week 6)

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I sat across the table, enjoying lunch with one of my best friends as tears streamed down my cheeks, “I’m struggling and I don’t know what to do.  My attitude sucks and I know it, but I can’t seem to snap out of this funk. I’m miserable.”

She lovingly shared some of her own advice on how to cope and encouraged me to change my perspective.  Later she sent me this quote via text:

“Life is ten percent what happens to you
and ninety percent how you respond to it.”
Lou Holtz

Truth be told, several of my dreams are right in front of me, yet still intangible. It’s like looking through the window at your favorite dessert, yet being unable to consume it.  That’s where I am right now and it is quite a struggle for my restless heart as I attempt to rest in Christ & trust His timing.  It challenges me as I daily fight having a bad attitude and being angry at my lack of understanding for God’s “not now” to my intangible dreams.

The quote my friend shared, opened my eyes to see that here I am: smack dab in the middle of my personal “storm”, focusing on the storm and not the Son.

Realizing this, I looked up and focused on the Son; quieting my heart and Resting in Him. As a result, He placed three hurting friends into my life, (the very next day), to whom I could speak Truth and encouragement!

Finally, brothers and sisters, fill your minds with beauty and truth.
Meditate on whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure,
whatever is lovely, whatever is good, whatever is virtuous and praiseworthy.

Philippians 4:8

As I was praying with one of my friends, the Holy Spirit gave me the visual image of a woman flailing her arms frantically in the middle of the ocean, to which He spoke, “The more you fight, with arms flailing, the harder you make it for me to reach out & rescue you. Rest in me & as you rest, I will rescue.”

Friend, so many times we try to “help” God rescue us or others we care about.

  • We react to an accusation, fumbling to defend ourselves, when silence is all God’s asking, because He wants to be our Defender.
  • We go, go, go, fighting rest & focusing on our “to do” list when He longs for us to sit alone with Him, so He can be our Restorer.
  • We flail our arms frantically looking for someone to rescue us from the pain, when He wants us to rest in Him so He can be our Healer.
  • We search in all the wrong places for affection, when all the while He desires to show us His perfect, unwavering love as our Lover.

Life is full of storms, some worse than others. It isn’t until we stop our flailing arms, lift them in full surrender & rest in Jesus Christ that He can rescue us.  When we stop trying, stop fighting & start trusting Jesus, He does His most beautiful work in us. Until then, all we do is hinder His rescue.

What storm is brewing in your life, how are you handling it & how can I pray for you?

love satin2

This post is part of a series entitled, “Journey to Rest”. 
Previous Posts:
Week 1
Week 2
::A Pause::
Week 3
Week 4
Week 5

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Journey to Rest (Week 5)

hebrews 4 11

Hebrews 4:11 shows that rest is more than a mere suggestion from God, it’s an act of obedience.

Truth be told, in my struggle to “find the time” to rest, all I’m doing is running.  I may not be intentionally running away from God; my intentions may be to do all the running for God. However, I’m still running and not resting!

Running without rest becomes an act of disobedience to the one who has called us to rest.

Isaiah 30:15This is what the Sovereign Lord, the Holy One of Israel, says: ‘In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength, but you would have none of it.'”

Restless: We often use this word when watching someone wrestle in their faith with God, noting that their actions appear as a “restless struggle to surrender to Jesus.”  However, do we ever stop to think about our own restlessness? Restlessness isn’t limited to our struggle to surrender our lives to Jesus, it reaches beyond our relationship with Him & brings an unhealthy drive to strive.

  1. Our restlessness to surrender the day-to-day tasks to Jesus; making endless lists and checking them off one by one until they are complete.
  2. Our restlessness to relinquish control to another who might be willing and able to help, but is never given the opportunity.
  3. Our restlessness to say no, for fear of hurting, disappointing, or losing approval.

You have made us for yourself O Lord
and our heart is restless until it rests in you.
-St. Augustine-

We were made to worship God.

Our lives are living worship to God & without rest there is no melody; just mere notes running together in an unbalanced, constant flow of chaos.

“Because the focus of God’s heart has always been your heart,
self-care is really a soul’s journey to fully receive His love.”
-Bonnie Grey Finding Spiritual Whitespace-

Rest is as vital to our lives as God’s Word, for it is in our time of rest that His Word comes alive. When we quiet our hearts enough to soak in His love, it removes our unhealthy drive to strive & fills it with peace.  When we rest, we obey and when we obey we please the Father most.

Obedience: When God calls us to rest, and we choose to run, everything we do becomes an unsavory sacrifice instead of a pleasing aroma to God. (More on Obedience vs. Sacrifice)

1 Samuel 15:22to obey is better than sacrifice.”

To disobey God, by offering our busy lives as sacrifices, when He’s called us to lay them aside and rest, is a slap in His face;  It’s an act of deliberate rebellion.

“For rebellion is like the sin of divination, and arrogance like the evil of idolatry.
Because you have rejected the word of the Lord, he has rejected you as king.
1 Samuel 15:23

Let us not be so consumed by doing that we run; neglecting rest.

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How is your personal Journey to Rest going? Are you struggling like I am, or are you finding it easier to settle into the rhythm of rest? I would love to hear your heart!

love satin2

This post is part of a series entitled, “Journey to Rest”. 
Previous Posts:
Week 1
Week 2
::A Pause::
Week 3
Week 4

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This post is part of the, “Finding Spiritual Whitespace Blog Tour”
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Journey to Rest (Week 4)

psalm 66 9-10For many years, I maintained a prayer journal on a daily basis; praying for wisdom, guidance, and for those I loved. I wrote through the good times, and I wrote through the painful times; times where tears soaked the pages of my journal, threatening to erase the words I had written.

Truth be told, there’s a part of me that struggles with writing in a journal now, because I associate it with a darker time in my life; a time when my journal was the only place I could share the raw truth of my heart. My journal became my safe haven; the place where I begged God for mercy and deliverance, forgiveness, and healing.

If I am completely honest, there’s a part of me that has tried to simply erase my past by throwing away years of journal writings.  Yet there’s also a part of me that needed to throw them away, to let go of my past so I could embrace the blessings of today.

Like Bonnie Gray, I sometimes struggle with letting go of things that hold memories of moments shared. Yet sometimes, the things I’m holding on to, are the very things that are binding me; holding me back from experiencing the blessings of today.

I needed to be reminded that the scars of my past are okay; they are proof that there was pain, just as they are proof that there is healing.  To me, letting go of the journal writings was an outward display of an inner working. I was surrendering my past to the One who sets me apart from my past and sets my feet on higher ground; to a Journey of Rest.

Friend, I don’t know where you are, or what is behind you, but I just want to remind you of Who’s you are and where you are today! God doesn’t take us through the fire to let us burn, He takes us through the fire to refine us.  Please do not allow the enemy to steal your rest, by keeping your past failures at the forefront of your mind.  Part of this Journey to Rest, is finding peace with our past, and embracing the present.  Our past doesn’t define us, it refines us!

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I have decided to continue my Journey to Rest, beyond the originally set 4 weeks.  God is doing so much in my heart, and Bonnie’s book has so much more I want to explore.  I hope you’ll continue on this journey with me!

love satin2

This post is part of a series entitled, “Journey to Rest”. 
Previous Posts:
Week 1
Week 2
::A Pause::
Week 3

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findingspiritualwhitespace_book

You may purchase Finding Spiritual Whitespace, HERE.

This post is part of the, “Finding Spiritual Whitespace Blog Tour”
which I am honored to be a member,
along with a group of soulful, journeying kindreds.
To learn more or to join us, CLICK HERE!
whitespace-badge#spiritualwhitespace

I enjoy linking up with these fabulous communities:
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