Last week I wrote about waiting, and focused the post on my current wait for a baby. What I didn’t mention is that, in addition to waiting for a baby, I am also waiting for God to open the doors for me to lay aside my full-time job, so I can start working full-time from home, on the business my husband and I run together (Pelfreybilt Off-Road).
In all honestly, my attitude has been less than desirable lately. I go to bed and wake up dreading work, and while I’m there I’m often grumbling under my breath about being there.
I’ve been asking God to deliver me from the current mess at my work, while asking Him why He hasn’t opened the doors for me to leave, so I no longer have to balance two jobs, while caring for my family. I see Him moving mountains and opening doors; our business is growing and I see light at the end of the tunnel. However, I just don’t feel at peace quitting my job, yet. So I Wait.
When I read the quote by Jim Elliot my heart sank.
How can I ever expect God to bless our business, and honor the fruit of my labor, if only part of my labor is done with a pure heart?
How can God bless me, when I’m cursing him, through my actions of disbelief, by not exhibiting a good attitude where He has called me to serve, today?
As confident as I am that God will be moving me on soon, God cannot bless when my heart is impure, my actions are lacking integrity, and I am failing to be faithful in the small things He has called me to, for this season of my life.
In the past, my Mom and I have discussed how certain challenges, often present themselves as tests. If we fail them the first time, we have to keep repeating them until we pass! That said, until God finds me faithful in the small things, the mundane things, and the less desirable things, He cannot bless me with the bigger things.
The flip side of Luke 16:10 comes from Luke 12:48:
If God were to open the doors for me to quit my current job, in order to focus on our business, would I be faithful? I say that I would be, yet here I am, in the small things, right where we wants me today, and grumbling like the Israelites! (Numbers 14:2)
It is my job to live in a way that pleases God and makes Him eager to bless me. (Malachi 3:10)
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How about you, friend? Is there something God has called you to do today that you’re struggling to do with a pure heart? I would love to hear how you are working through your time of waiting.
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