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You’re in Better Hands

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taking my life back

In last week’s post “Be All There” I shared about my full-time job and my lack of peace in leaving yet, in order to work full-time on our business.

In 2012, when my husband and I first started Pelfreybilt Off-Road, God spoke this promise to me:

“I will always provide” 

He didn’t say He would provide sometimes, or maybe, or if I prayed hard enough, He said always. And He has always made good on that promise, even when it looked like bills would not be paid.  Always, God provided.

As you know, I typically post on Wednesday or Thursday, but this week that didn’t happen because I’ve been wrestling with God over this promise, and my fear of letting go and fully trusting Him.

I’ve been saying in one breath that I trust God and that He’s never failed me, yet in the next breath saying I’m afraid of letting go of a full time job that comes with the (false) security blanket of a steady income!

The reason I haven’t had peace about leaving my job, is because I’ve been waiting for peace to come after the black and white of our finances proved to me that God will provide. Instead of putting my complete trust in the One who promised to provide, instead of choosing to find my security in the only One who is secure, I’ve been clinging to something fleeting & temporary.

I have been clinging to my job for stability, instead of clinging to the Ultimate Stabilizer, the very one who stabilized the raging storms with three small words: “Peace, Be Still” (Mark 4:39)

False security and fear stems from unbelief in Jehovah Jireh, Our Provider.  (Genesis 22:14)

In my prayer time, God asked me “How can I fully bless you, when you won’t let go long enough to embrace what I’m giving you?”  He showed me, my lack of faith in His provision, has caused me to cling so tightly to my false security, that I couldn’t see the life and joy I was squeezing right out of my hands!

Lifeless

Joyless

Empty

Miserable

These have been the words of my heart as of late, as I desperately cling to false security.

I just started reading Hands Free Mama, by Rachel Macy Stafford, and in her intro she says these words:

“How do I do it all?
I miss out on life-that’s how I do it all.
I miss out on what truly matters;
and what I miss, I can’t get back.”

After wrestling with God, I actually sat down and looked over our finances and for the first time, began to see, that we truly could afford for me not to work anywhere but in our business.  God also opened my eyes to see the LIFE and JOY I will be regaining by taking this leap of faith!

I’m tired of missing out, so I’m letting go, friend! I gave my verbal resignation to my employer on Friday and will be leaving October 31, 2014.  (I’m helping with the hiring, training & transition process)

The peace and JOY that now floods my heart and mind is inexpressible!  I’m getting my life back, the one God has so richly blessed me with; I’m taking it back and releasing my fears to the One who holds my tomorrows and who promises to provide today!

I am truly in the best hands and so are you, sweet friend, so are you!

love satin2

16 thoughts on “You’re in Better Hands

  1. Truly an answer to prayer!

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  2. Yay – so proud of you that you are taking this leap of faith!! I can’t wait to hear how He will bless you in the coming months!

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  3. God will bless you for the intention of your heart to fully trust him, he will continue to provide for you and do far more than you ask for or expect.

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  4. Satin, I am so excited for you. I cannot wait to see what God does in you and your husband in this season. Hugs!

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  5. Yay!! God is good ALL the time! Those leaps of faith are scary, but SO worth it! I’m proud of you!!

    (Let me know what you think of piyo, I’ve been eyeing it for a while:))

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  6. So happy that you are at peace about all this. Like I said earlier…it is an answer to prayer.

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  7. we’ve wrestled too, Satin, take a good courage and draw great comfort in a GOD~based economy~He can & will provide for u, His beloved…
    Matthew 6:30…you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.
    Psalm 50:10…Spread for me a banquet of praise, serve High God a feast of kept promises, And call for help when you’re in trouble— I’ll help you, and you’ll honor me.”
    blessings to remind u!

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  8. Oh you & I, sisters in Christ, passionate about writing and leading, we work with our husbands in our own businesses share so much. I can’t wait to follow you on this journey we call life.

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  9. I can completely relate to the waiting to see the “proof” in black and white before making changes. It’s so much easier to walk by sight than by faith. Good for you for taking the leap. So happy for you.

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  10. I know this! I did this years ago to home school our daughter… and we did this when we moved to another state. Oh I’m so thrilled for you that you are feeling the peace that comes from truly whole heartedly stepping out on faith!! A True step. He will provide. This is awesome for your soul to step out and do as He is leading!
    Celebrating with you!!

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  11. So proud and happy for you Satin! Not just for the peace and joy from your courageous decision but also for being the kind of woman who will help your employer with transitioning your departure. God bless you as you embark on your new adventure, resting in obedience. Look forward to hearing what He has in store for you!

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  13. Satin, may God continue to reveal His faithfulness to you as you walk by faith right into the promise of His provision and Everlasting Arms.

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  14. Hi Satin — visiting from Holley’s. All God’s best with your next chapter…Two years ago I left the security of a FT job to pursue our dream and GOD ALWAYS PROVIDES. Keep following your heart and may you and your husband’s quiver be blessed many times over. xxoo

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