My Heart, His Words

Let the Words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your site, O Lord.


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You Make My Heart Happy

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He’s my husband and very best friend.
He’s the one who’s company I most enjoy,
Who’s smile reassures,
Who’s embrace comforts,
And who’s laughter liberates.
He’s my soul mate,
Confidant, lover,
And my other half;
My Greatest Gift From God.

He works hard, juggling a full-time job, while helping to grow our business.
He provides everything we need and often things we want.
He puts up with me on my worst days; choosing to focus on my better days.
He encourages me when I can’t see the good.
He believes in me when I don’t even believe  in myself.

What gift do you give the man who makes your world complete?
What do you say, to express the immense gratitude for all he is as a husband?
My words seem pale in comparison to what this man brings to my life.

Our life isn’t perfect; far from it.
We have days we argue over silly things,
But mostly, our days are filled with harmony,
Love, respect & deep admiration for each other

So, today, I dedicate this post to my husband, Tyler;
The one who’s words pushed me to create this precious space;
Who truly is my best friend & who I am insanely proud of.

Tyler, may richly God bless you in the coming year.
May He draw you ever nearer to Him.
May He grant the desires of your heart;
Strengthen your mind and body,
And may He bless you beyond measure.

I always thank my God as I remember you in my prayers~Philemon 1:4

Happy Birthday, Love!

I love you!

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What I Would Have Missed: #HandsFreeMama Series

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Picking up Hands Free Mama this week and reading Chapter 3 “Choose What Matters~Deliberateness”, was like striking a gold mine, except the reward for me, was far more precious than gold!

“Now that you are able to weigh the high costs of distraction
against the priceless benefits of connection,
the choice is yours”
{Rachel Macy Stafford}

After some hurtful altercations several years ago with my stepson Jackson’s mother, I chose to take several steps back and not to watch him without my husband, Tyler, present.

This past weekend Tyler was going out of town, so I was left with two options: either stick to my original “rule” of not watching Jackson without Tyler present, or lay that rule aside and watch him. Tyler left the decision up to me, so I prayed  about it and decided it was time to leave the past behind, and proceed with watching Jackson for the weekend.

The weekend started off great, then, as they sometimes do, things took a turn and Jackson ended up needing some correction for stealing toys from his neighbor friend. I took a moment to step away from the situation long enough to engage in a brief text with my mom asking for prayer.

I stepped into Jackson’s room, sat down with him, calmly and sincerely addressed the issue and prayed with him.

Then I looked into his face and asked him if he wanted Jesus to live inside his heart so He could help him to listen, obey, be good, and not steal.

With tears streaming down his little face, my precious stepson said, “yes”.

I had the honor of encouraging Jackson to pray, in his own six-year-old-words, and ask Jesus to live inside his heart, and help him to be good.

Talk about being more precious that gold!!

Choosing what matters most…

Sometimes our pride says no, but God says yes.

Sometimes our obedient “yes” turns into a gift for all of eternity.

What I would have missed, had I held onto my pride and said no.

What I would have missed, had I not said yes.

I am utterly humbled at the thought of being a vessel God can use.

He chose me; of all the people in Jackson’s life, He chose me…

As my friend Holley Gerth says,
“The enemy tries to trick us into believing we’re not enough

because he knows if we discover the truth we’ll be unstoppable.”

Today, I am thanking God for imparting His truth to my heart and for reminding me,
“You are not enough…in me you are so much more. {Holley Gerth}

Today, I am thanking God for His ability to honor my obedience and make something beautiful from something ugly.

Today, I look back at these past six years with Jackson and see only a glimpse of what God has in store for him, and our beautiful family.

The choice is mine…

Oh the utter joy that awaits those who love God!

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This post is dedicated to my precious Mother and Best Friend.
Today is her birthday and in honor of the beautiful life she lives for Jesus,
I couldn’t think of a better way to celebrate, than to print in black and white,
proof of her faithful prayers for my stepson and our family.
My Mom has been in the trenches with us, as we’ve walked these difficult years.
She’s witnessed the pain, the anguish, and the tears,
and offered countless hours of encouragement, hugs and prayers.
While I realize this is only the beginning of Jackson’s spiritual journey,
I accredit my mother for her tenacity in praying & assuring me that my work is not in vain:
to never give up on what GOD can do in an impossible situation!
Happy Birthday, Mom!
You are one amazing woman and I am honored to be your daughter!
I Love You!
XOXO


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When Your Heart Is Overwhelmed

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I can’t speak for you, but right now, my heart is completely overwhelmed!

Many things weigh heavy on my heart and mind, so Psalm 61:2 is a verse I am warmly embracing.

People I love…

Trying to be brave and strong on the outside, while crumbling on the inside; afraid, yet clinging to Jesus.

People I love…

Being handed their last paychecks, while bills pile up and no new job can be seen on the horizon.

People I love…

Given a diagnosis and a timeline that speaks utter hopelessness.

People I love…

Crippled from pain, without understanding why.

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All around me, people I love are hurting.

Who am I to question the hand of God?

But it is I, even I, who sits here with tears streaming down her face, crying out to Him.

For answers

For healing

For provision

For peace

For Him to be Who He is at a time when fear grips ours hearts & threatens all that we know.

He is our ROCK!

When my heart is truly overwhelmed, with all that lies around and within me…

He is here.

Steady as can be; my Savior, my Comforter, my Peace, my Strength & my Rock. {Psalm 46:1}

At a time when the world screams “Where is God that He should allow this to happen?”

My heart is assured, that He is still God. He is Still good for his Word and His promises remain true. {Psalm 136:1}

Lifting my hands upward to Jesus and asking Him to envelope our questioning and hurting hearts today.

Thanking Him in advance for using this season to refine and prepare us for all He has in store! {1Peter 1:7}

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Not Right Now

I’ve talked a lot lately about the journey of transition I’m currently walking and friend, it’s a hard road, let me tell you.

Amidst these changes, I am struggling to have words from my heart, or even the time to share, in this beautiful space.

I keep hearing Jesus whispering to my heart, “not right now” and it’s been a bit difficult for me to embrace.  In all honesty, I’ve been fighting it, not wanting to let go; scared I’m going to miss out!

I am a passionate woman! I put my heart and soul into everything I do, or I don’t do it at all.  I love writing, so not having the words, or time to do so, has been painful.  Laying it down and trusting God’s timing is truly a test of my faith.

Yet that is what I’m doing.

While I’m not closing my blog, for this season, I cannot commit to the weekly postings I’ve done in the past.

I need your mercy.

I need your understanding.

I need your support and prayers.

Because, I need to walk in obedience, and honor God’s call on my life at this time.

Instead of writing here; instead of pouring my heart into my blog… He is calling me to use that same passion to grow Pelfreybilt Off-Road, Inc, and use my gifts to do so.

This isn’t the way I envisioned my dream of writing turning out. {God asking me to pause from it}

However, I couldn’t be more thrilled about this new chapter. Business ownership makes me incredibly proud! It too is a life-long dream, that because of God’s blessing and my husband’s brilliant mind, I get the opportunity to run a business with him!  It’s a humbling and honoring chapter of my life and I want to give it my very best.

I refuse to hold on to what is comfortable.

I refuse to hold on to what was once desired.

Instead, I’m choosing to reach out, in faith, and cling to the hand of Jesus as He leads me forward.

Instead, I’m letting go of my preconceived notions and trusting God with each of my tomorrows.

Less planning. Less earthly stability.

More Jesus. More security.

You see, my life is not my own-it was bought with the Ultimate price, and I cannot live it modestly.

I am choosing to live it vivaciously!

“Lay It Down” written by Jaci Valasquez, truly captures this season of my life and I hope it will bless you as much as it’s blessing me.

Thank you for your love and encouragement. God has richly blessed me your loving heart, surrounding and covering me in prayer & I covet that so much right now.

Until Next Time.

With Love,

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