My Heart, His Words

Let the Words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your site, O Lord.

Not Right Now


I’ve talked a lot lately about the journey of transition I’m currently walking and friend, it’s a hard road, let me tell you.

Amidst these changes, I am struggling to have words from my heart, or even the time to share, in this beautiful space.

I keep hearing Jesus whispering to my heart, “not right now” and it’s been a bit difficult for me to embrace.  In all honesty, I’ve been fighting it, not wanting to let go; scared I’m going to miss out!

I am a passionate woman! I put my heart and soul into everything I do, or I don’t do it at all.  I love writing, so not having the words, or time to do so, has been painful.  Laying it down and trusting God’s timing is truly a test of my faith.

Yet that is what I’m doing.

While I’m not closing my blog, for this season, I cannot commit to the weekly postings I’ve done in the past.

I need your mercy.

I need your understanding.

I need your support and prayers.

Because, I need to walk in obedience, and honor God’s call on my life at this time.

Instead of writing here; instead of pouring my heart into my blog… He is calling me to use that same passion to grow Pelfreybilt Off-Road, Inc, and use my gifts to do so.

This isn’t the way I envisioned my dream of writing turning out. {God asking me to pause from it}

However, I couldn’t be more thrilled about this new chapter. Business ownership makes me incredibly proud! It too is a life-long dream, that because of God’s blessing and my husband’s brilliant mind, I get the opportunity to run a business with him!  It’s a humbling and honoring chapter of my life and I want to give it my very best.

I refuse to hold on to what is comfortable.

I refuse to hold on to what was once desired.

Instead, I’m choosing to reach out, in faith, and cling to the hand of Jesus as He leads me forward.

Instead, I’m letting go of my preconceived notions and trusting God with each of my tomorrows.

Less planning. Less earthly stability.

More Jesus. More security.

You see, my life is not my own-it was bought with the Ultimate price, and I cannot live it modestly.

I am choosing to live it vivaciously!

“Lay It Down” written by Jaci Valasquez, truly captures this season of my life and I hope it will bless you as much as it’s blessing me.

Thank you for your love and encouragement. God has richly blessed me your loving heart, surrounding and covering me in prayer & I covet that so much right now.

Until Next Time.

With Love,



6 thoughts on “Not Right Now

  1. Praying God’s blessing on you as you faithfully listen and obey Him.

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  2. Satin,
    I will miss your emails, however I completely understand and agree to your following in the ultimate obedience.
    I will be praying for you!!
    God’s blessing you in your obedience to Him!
    With love, Jeanne

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    • Thank you, friend! I pray this season of my life {the pause from writing} will be brief… yet that is in God’s hands! Thank you for your continued love, support & prayers on this journey!


  3. Thank you for courageously sharing your journey to lay it down, stepping out in trust and obedience to vivaciously live the life that was bought at a price Satin! Many blessings in the God-sized dream you share with your brilliant husband. In the absence of your posts, we remain together and connected through my prayers as you write the new and humbling chapter in your life with all your heart. xo


    • Thank you, friend! I pray this season of my life {the pause from writing} will be brief… yet that is in God’s hands! Thank you for your continued love, support & prayers on this journey! You, my friend, are a gift! xo


  4. Thank you friend. God will reward your obedience. I am feeling a little off these days, in the writing, like I’m striving. I am praying, asking God what I should be doing. Pray with me? Looking forward to a hug in the not too distant future. 🙂


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