My Heart, His Words

Let the Words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your site, O Lord.


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A Scarlet Letter Covered By Love

While I haven’t been able to write nearly as often as my heart longs to, this season of my life is overflowing with God’s goodness and love.  My heart is busting at the seams with gratitude for all He is doing in and through me.

I am honored to be part of several amazing writing communities and one of them is Circles of Faith.

Elise and Kimberly recently asked if they could share my God-Sized Dreams Back Story and with great delight, I agreed.

Today, my post is live on Circles of Faith.  Will you join me in rejoicing over God’s redemptive love at work in my life?

CLICK HERE>> A Scarlet Letter Covered By Love

As always, thank you for your love, support and encouragement as I walk in obedience to the call God has placed on my life, “For such a time as this” {Esther 4:14}

love satin 2015


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Making Room for Christ in Christmas

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Christmas has always been my favorite holiday, yet with the increasing commercialism, I find it difficult to see Christ in Christmas at all…

…Unless I make room for Him.

Long ago, no one made room for Jesus in the inn, and instead He was born in a lowly manger among the “least of these”.

Somehow we often get fixated on making Christmas perfect with the tree, decorations, and baking cookies yet, that isn’t what Christmas is all about.  While those things are festive and fun, the real truth behind Christmas is about making room for Christ every single day.

  • Praying for, supporting and encouraging our spouse.
  • Teaching our child(ren) the true meaning of Christmas and how to walk with Jesus.
  • Spending time with our parents, helping them and enjoying their company.
  • Writing an email, sending a text, or mailing a card to a friend in need.
  • Showing love and compassion to a perfect stranger.

When our focus becomes less about the commercialized Christmas season and more about Christ, we are able to see the extraordinary in the ordinary.

By making room for Christ:
We open our eyes to a world in need of a Savior,
and willingly become His hands & feet extended in love.

By making room for Christ: 
It becomes less about tradition, and more about inclusion,
as we insure that those around us feel loved every day of the year.

By making room for Christ:
We open our arms wide, laying aside our differences,
and see each other as children of God, making us the family of God.

As we enjoy the Christmas festivities and time with family and friends, may we focus on making room for Christ, turning this season into a joyous time of LOVE.  After all, it was LOVE that was born in that manger long ago and it is LOVE that lives within us!

Let LOVE live among us!

I would really enjoy hearing how you plan to make room for Christ this Christmas Season!  Won’t you share?


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When Your Heart Is Overwhelmed

psalm 61.2

I can’t speak for you, but right now, my heart is completely overwhelmed!

Many things weigh heavy on my heart and mind, so Psalm 61:2 is a verse I am warmly embracing.

People I love…

Trying to be brave and strong on the outside, while crumbling on the inside; afraid, yet clinging to Jesus.

People I love…

Being handed their last paychecks, while bills pile up and no new job can be seen on the horizon.

People I love…

Given a diagnosis and a timeline that speaks utter hopelessness.

People I love…

Crippled from pain, without understanding why.

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All around me, people I love are hurting.

Who am I to question the hand of God?

But it is I, even I, who sits here with tears streaming down her face, crying out to Him.

For answers

For healing

For provision

For peace

For Him to be Who He is at a time when fear grips ours hearts & threatens all that we know.

He is our ROCK!

When my heart is truly overwhelmed, with all that lies around and within me…

He is here.

Steady as can be; my Savior, my Comforter, my Peace, my Strength & my Rock. {Psalm 46:1}

At a time when the world screams “Where is God that He should allow this to happen?”

My heart is assured, that He is still God. He is Still good for his Word and His promises remain true. {Psalm 136:1}

Lifting my hands upward to Jesus and asking Him to envelope our questioning and hurting hearts today.

Thanking Him in advance for using this season to refine and prepare us for all He has in store! {1Peter 1:7}

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Not Right Now

I’ve talked a lot lately about the journey of transition I’m currently walking and friend, it’s a hard road, let me tell you.

Amidst these changes, I am struggling to have words from my heart, or even the time to share, in this beautiful space.

I keep hearing Jesus whispering to my heart, “not right now” and it’s been a bit difficult for me to embrace.  In all honesty, I’ve been fighting it, not wanting to let go; scared I’m going to miss out!

I am a passionate woman! I put my heart and soul into everything I do, or I don’t do it at all.  I love writing, so not having the words, or time to do so, has been painful.  Laying it down and trusting God’s timing is truly a test of my faith.

Yet that is what I’m doing.

While I’m not closing my blog, for this season, I cannot commit to the weekly postings I’ve done in the past.

I need your mercy.

I need your understanding.

I need your support and prayers.

Because, I need to walk in obedience, and honor God’s call on my life at this time.

Instead of writing here; instead of pouring my heart into my blog… He is calling me to use that same passion to grow Pelfreybilt Off-Road, Inc, and use my gifts to do so.

This isn’t the way I envisioned my dream of writing turning out. {God asking me to pause from it}

However, I couldn’t be more thrilled about this new chapter. Business ownership makes me incredibly proud! It too is a life-long dream, that because of God’s blessing and my husband’s brilliant mind, I get the opportunity to run a business with him!  It’s a humbling and honoring chapter of my life and I want to give it my very best.

I refuse to hold on to what is comfortable.

I refuse to hold on to what was once desired.

Instead, I’m choosing to reach out, in faith, and cling to the hand of Jesus as He leads me forward.

Instead, I’m letting go of my preconceived notions and trusting God with each of my tomorrows.

Less planning. Less earthly stability.

More Jesus. More security.

You see, my life is not my own-it was bought with the Ultimate price, and I cannot live it modestly.

I am choosing to live it vivaciously!

“Lay It Down” written by Jaci Valasquez, truly captures this season of my life and I hope it will bless you as much as it’s blessing me.

Thank you for your love and encouragement. God has richly blessed me your loving heart, surrounding and covering me in prayer & I covet that so much right now.

Until Next Time.

With Love,

Satin

 


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Shine On, Friend!

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“He will yet fill your mouth with laughter and your lips with shouts of joy.” {Job 8:21}

Life is full of disappointments, stress and pain, but we have a promise that amidst our deepest valleys, there is One who will fill our mouth with laughter and give us JOY from deep within!

I know many of you are experiencing some extremely challenging times. You’ve lost jobs, lost loved ones, or received bad news about someone you love.  A spouse walked out, you’ve been diagnosed with a disease that has no cure, or you’ve even lost a piece of yourself amidst your pain.  Think of Job. He had everything. God had blessed him abundantly… then he lost it all.

What was Job’s response to his loss?

Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him” {Job 13:15}

Did Job deny his anguish and pretend his journey was “peachy keen”? Absolutely not! He bore his soul to God, crying out for mercy, and with anguish, he begged for deliverance from his affliction.

Us, my friend, are called to do the same thing; to pour our hearts out to our Loving Father, who knows our hearts and longs to comfort us when we are hurting.

Amidst Job’s affliction he found these words:

“Look, I go forward, but He is not there,
And backward, but I cannot perceive Him;
When He works on the left hand, I cannot behold Him;
When He turns to the right hand, I cannot see Him.
But He knows the way that I take;
When He has tested me, I shall come forth as gold.
My foot has held fast to His steps;
I have kept His way and not turned aside.
I have not departed from the commandment of His lips;
I have treasured the words of His mouth
More than my necessary food.”
{Job 23:8-12}

Friend, when we hit our knees and pour our hearts out to God, He hears us! Often we do not see His hand at work, no matter what we do. Sometimes He doesn’t heal us, sometimes He doesn’t give us what we’re asking for and sometimes He allows more pain than we ever thought we could endure…

But He is always, always there.

He is REFINING us.

He is MOLDING us.

He is HOLDING us.

And when He is done, we will Shine like the Son, for His righteousness will shine through us like never before & we will behold his glory, in everything we do and say.

He IS our Redeemer.

He IS our Provider.

He IS our Everything.

May you cling to His promises, without seeing them come to fruition.

May you allow His JOY to deeply root within your heart, so His joy radiates within your smile.

Shine on, my friend, the Son is within you, Shine on!

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Most Perfect Curve

curves of a smile

While reading Ann Voskamp’s post it made me think of my husbands words most recently when I asked him how he really feels about me quitting my full-time job to pursue our business full-time.

“I feel good about it! I finally get my wife back!” Those words spoke two things to me:

  • My happiness is reflected in the smile upon my face
  • My husbands happiness is directly affected by own happiness

On my Journey to Rest I shared of my struggle to relinquish control, to ask for help and ultimately to trust God to be my provider in all things. Now, as my husband and I have made this life changing decision, I am pursuing a life of more purposeful, less distracted living.

Reading Hands Free Mama is really opening my eyes to just how much the happiness of my husband, stepson, our family and friends are all directly affected by my own happiness or the lack their of! As I mentioned before, I am truly blessed, and my heart has never lost sight of that. However, my life choices haven’t lent to reflecting the fruit of my gratitude because I haven’t allowed myself enough time for rest, nor have I been living a balanced life.

“In one simple, beautiful gesture, my daughter cemented
my newfound pursuit to live Hands Free.

I realized with clarity that thisthis pausing,
when the whole world keeps on going-is living.
{Rachel Macy Stafford}

Friends, it is our choice! We can choose to keep saying yes to the people and things that don’t matter, while saying no to those we love the most, or we can embrace a Hands Free, life that yields abundant joy, treasured memories and tremendous peace and health!

1 Corinthians 16:14 says “Let all you do be done in love,”

How can we fully love, if we are not fully present?

For some of us, technology is our weakness; email, Facebook, Instagram, Pinterest. While for others of us, it’s our jobs or work.  I know for me, it’s been both! I’ve spent the past two and a half years, busting my bottom at a full-time job while trying to build a business with my husband that will sustain our family.  I don’t consider it a bad thing by any means, but I have had to make sacrifices on this journey.  I’ve sacrificed personal time, fitness and health. I’ve sacrificed family time and time with my husband.

While sacrifice is necessary to achieve any goal we set, there has to be balance and that is something I’ve struggled with over the years.

“I need to be reminded that I could complain less,
cherish more, let go of the have-tos,
and say yes more often.
I need to be reminded that although
sunsets and goodbyes happen every day,
each one should be treated as if it’s the last.
I need to be reminded that real living happens
when I peel away the distractions and
hold my perfectly imperfect life
tenderly in my hands.
And someday, I’ll be grateful I didn’t miss my life.”
{Rachel Macy Stafford}

So how about those curves?

Are you smiling?

Is your life so busy, you find yourself frustrated, in tears or on the brink of a break-down at any given moment? That’s been me for the past year and if that’s you today, I can’t encourage you enough to embrace this truth:

The only person who can protect my time is me!

Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.
Proverbs 4:23

 I hope you’ll join me on my #handsfree journey! I’d love to hear about yours as well!

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So I Wait

a no today often means a yes is on the way

Anyone who knows me, knows the biggest dream of my heart is to be a mother, so I keep reminding myself that God is using this time of waiting to move mountains before He releases His little angel into our care.  As much as I cling to that hope, and God’s promise to grant the desires of my heart, I’d be lying if I didn’t tell you that I wake up each morning with a sadness for what is to come, yet has not arrived.

These days I am clinging to Psalm 27:13:
“I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the Lord
In the land of the living.”

So I Wait.

I am daily reminded of God’s goodness & faithfulness.

I talk to a sweet friend who experienced infertility for many years before having 4 children of her own. Another dear friend of mine thought having a baby was part of God’s plan, yet instead she was called to be a word mama and years later became the proud mama to an adopted 20 year old young lady! A new friend struggled with infertility and adoption, and is on this journey of waiting right along side me.

The point? I am not alone and neither are you!

Many of us are waiting together, so I want to whisper to your heart: the journey of waiting doesn’t mean you’re doing something wrong.

Did you catch that?

Just because God doesn’t give us our “yes” right now, doesn’t mean we’re doing anything wrong, or that we’re failing some test we think He’s giving us.  Life is simply not designed to be viewed with the natural eye.  Jesus says in Matthew 11:15He who has ears to hear, let him hear.” 

My understanding of this scripture is not that it means to “listen up”, rather it means to “tune in” to His heart for us; to hear His voice for us, to follow His call on us, and to have His ears in all circumstances of our lives. To be ONE with The One Who’s heart beats for us and Who longs to give us all good things. (Matthew 7:11 NLT)

A “no” today, often means a “yes” is on the way.

I look back on my life and how God answered my prayers with firm “no’s”.  At the time I couldn’t understand why He said “no”, but now I see more clearly and can truly embrace with confidence that His timing is perfect, even when it’s not mine and even though I may not understand.

So I Wait.

 “But those who wait on the Lord
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint.”.
Isaiah 40:31 NKJV

Friend, whatever you are waiting for, trust the One who planted the desire in your heart, and hold fast to the hope that in His perfect time He will grant the desires of your heart.  In the meantime, keep walking this journey and keep being YOU!

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