My Heart, His Words

Let the Words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your site, O Lord.


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Shine On, Friend!

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“He will yet fill your mouth with laughter and your lips with shouts of joy.” {Job 8:21}

Life is full of disappointments, stress and pain, but we have a promise that amidst our deepest valleys, there is One who will fill our mouth with laughter and give us JOY from deep within!

I know many of you are experiencing some extremely challenging times. You’ve lost jobs, lost loved ones, or received bad news about someone you love.  A spouse walked out, you’ve been diagnosed with a disease that has no cure, or you’ve even lost a piece of yourself amidst your pain.  Think of Job. He had everything. God had blessed him abundantly… then he lost it all.

What was Job’s response to his loss?

Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him” {Job 13:15}

Did Job deny his anguish and pretend his journey was “peachy keen”? Absolutely not! He bore his soul to God, crying out for mercy, and with anguish, he begged for deliverance from his affliction.

Us, my friend, are called to do the same thing; to pour our hearts out to our Loving Father, who knows our hearts and longs to comfort us when we are hurting.

Amidst Job’s affliction he found these words:

“Look, I go forward, but He is not there,
And backward, but I cannot perceive Him;
When He works on the left hand, I cannot behold Him;
When He turns to the right hand, I cannot see Him.
But He knows the way that I take;
When He has tested me, I shall come forth as gold.
My foot has held fast to His steps;
I have kept His way and not turned aside.
I have not departed from the commandment of His lips;
I have treasured the words of His mouth
More than my necessary food.”
{Job 23:8-12}

Friend, when we hit our knees and pour our hearts out to God, He hears us! Often we do not see His hand at work, no matter what we do. Sometimes He doesn’t heal us, sometimes He doesn’t give us what we’re asking for and sometimes He allows more pain than we ever thought we could endure…

But He is always, always there.

He is REFINING us.

He is MOLDING us.

He is HOLDING us.

And when He is done, we will Shine like the Son, for His righteousness will shine through us like never before & we will behold his glory, in everything we do and say.

He IS our Redeemer.

He IS our Provider.

He IS our Everything.

May you cling to His promises, without seeing them come to fruition.

May you allow His JOY to deeply root within your heart, so His joy radiates within your smile.

Shine on, my friend, the Son is within you, Shine on!

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Journey to Rest (Week 4)

psalm 66 9-10For many years, I maintained a prayer journal on a daily basis; praying for wisdom, guidance, and for those I loved. I wrote through the good times, and I wrote through the painful times; times where tears soaked the pages of my journal, threatening to erase the words I had written.

Truth be told, there’s a part of me that struggles with writing in a journal now, because I associate it with a darker time in my life; a time when my journal was the only place I could share the raw truth of my heart. My journal became my safe haven; the place where I begged God for mercy and deliverance, forgiveness, and healing.

If I am completely honest, there’s a part of me that has tried to simply erase my past by throwing away years of journal writings.  Yet there’s also a part of me that needed to throw them away, to let go of my past so I could embrace the blessings of today.

Like Bonnie Gray, I sometimes struggle with letting go of things that hold memories of moments shared. Yet sometimes, the things I’m holding on to, are the very things that are binding me; holding me back from experiencing the blessings of today.

I needed to be reminded that the scars of my past are okay; they are proof that there was pain, just as they are proof that there is healing.  To me, letting go of the journal writings was an outward display of an inner working. I was surrendering my past to the One who sets me apart from my past and sets my feet on higher ground; to a Journey of Rest.

Friend, I don’t know where you are, or what is behind you, but I just want to remind you of Who’s you are and where you are today! God doesn’t take us through the fire to let us burn, He takes us through the fire to refine us.  Please do not allow the enemy to steal your rest, by keeping your past failures at the forefront of your mind.  Part of this Journey to Rest, is finding peace with our past, and embracing the present.  Our past doesn’t define us, it refines us!

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I have decided to continue my Journey to Rest, beyond the originally set 4 weeks.  God is doing so much in my heart, and Bonnie’s book has so much more I want to explore.  I hope you’ll continue on this journey with me!

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This post is part of a series entitled, “Journey to Rest”. 
Previous Posts:
Week 1
Week 2
::A Pause::
Week 3

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Journey to Rest (Week 3)

Beautiful red and yellow tulips in the spring time.  Shallow depth of field.

On my Journey to Rest, my absolute biggest struggle has been simply letting go.

Letting go long enough to REST.

The day I read this quote by Corrie ten Boom, the Holy Spirit reminded me of something.

The more tightly I hold on to the things that consume my time & energy, the less I accomplish and the more I fight God!

It’s never my intention to fight God, any more than it’s my intention not to rest, yet I do it!

This past weekend was a prime example of the beauty in rest.

I had a lot of accounting to do for our off-road business, so took the time to do that, then purposely stopped and treated myself to a mani/pedi.  Upon my return, my husband surprised me with a beautiful bouquet of my favorite sunflowers as well as a gorgeous card that even made me cry.

The time away, resting and enjoying alone time, provided my husband with the opportunity to bless me, as well as provided me with the opportunity to clear my head.  When I returned to working, my mind was renewed and I was able to focus and accomplish everything I needed to accomplish.

Too often I find myself holding on tightly to the things that need to be done, rather than forcing myself to let go; resting, praying & allowing God to renew my heart and mind.  I forge ahead on an empty tank, and wonder why things are more frustrating than they need to be, why I’m grumpy and snapping at my family and coworkers, or why I keep making mistakes and can’t seem to make any progress.

Corrie’s words serve as a beautiful reminder that everything, in our lives, is temporary, so hold on to them loosely, regardless if they are things or tasks.

Ecclesiastes 1:2 says it best:
Life is fleeting, like a passing mist. It is like trying to catch hold of a breath; All vanishes like a vapor; everything is a great vanity.

The only lasting thing we can cling to, is the steady hand of our Savior as we yield to His call to REST.

How about you? Do you struggle to rest? What do Corrie ten Boom’s words speak to your heart?  I would love to hear from you, as we Journey to Rest together.

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This post is part of a series entitled, “Journey to Rest”. 
Previous Posts:
Week 1
Week 2
::A Pause::

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Journey to Rest ::A Pause::

jesus is waiting

When I started Bonnie Gray’s book Finding Spiritual Whitespace, I had no clue where my journey would lead me, or what God would speak to my heart.  I did know however, that I wanted to make a blog series out of this book, and share my Journey to Rest with you.

My first post told you about a childhood experience that lead me to embracing a falsehood about rest.

My second post addressed a letter to my younger self, denouncing the lies I’ve embraced about not only rest, but also about myself as a whole.

As I’m learning to rest, I’m struggling, yet giving in & choosing to fully embrace the words Bonnie shares in her book:

“Jesus is Waiting.
I stop easily for others.
Will I stop long enough for me?”

So friend, I’m stopping for me.

This week, instead of forging ahead with my planned four-part series, I am pausing to REST.

I’m tired, weary & worn out. This week has held challenges I didn’t expect, along with the emotional & mental stress to be expected.  I need time to rest & fuel up again with Jesus, so I can share His goodness with you!

If you’re having a rough week as well, I hope you’ll rest with me & then meet back here again next week for part three of my Journey to Rest.

Praying you find shelter under the shadow of His wings. (Psalm 17:8)

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This post is a ::pause:: within a series entitled, “Journey to Rest”. 
Previous Posts:
Week 1

Week 2

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Journey to Rest (Week 2)

We often say, “Hindsight is 20/20”, yet do we ever take the time to denounce the false messages we’ve embraced for years? Or do we merely forge ahead without going any deeper, afraid of what might come to the surface?

On my journey to rest, Jesus is uncovering some falsehoods I’ve had about myself and rest.  As He’s doing this, my heart is unraveling and years of walls are crumbling. Behind these walls is a heart longing to just BE.  A heart longing for rest and contentment, in Jesus.

As a result of my heart unraveling, I decided it was time to write a letter to my younger self, denouncing the lies I’ve been embracing about myself and rest.

A Letter to My Younger Self

Dear Satin,

You are beautiful-just the way you are.
You don’t have to be a model to be perfect.
You don’t have to do anything to be loved.
In a world torn apart by anger and hatred,
Your smile and tender heart make you beautiful.

I know you don’t believe it now, but time passes quickly.
Don’t rush through life wishing for tomorrow;
Tomorrow will come quickly enough.
Just as quickly as the day arrives, it will pass.
Enjoy today. Live it to the fullest!

It’s okay to set goals, but remember to embrace today.
Savor each moment, don’t wish it away.
When you reach a goal, relish the moment.
Don’t meagerly celebrate, while shooting for the next goal.
Take joy in your accomplishments!
You did great! Be happy!

Don’t be ashamed of your gifts.
Using your gifts, doesn’t make you prideful.
Using your gifts, means embracing who God made, in you.
You don’t need to gloat, but it’s okay to embrace your gifts.
Be thankful for your gifts & return them to God, for His glory.

Don’t trust everyone; Guard your heart. (Like your Mom says!)
It’s good to be tenderhearted, but guard your heart.
Reserve the deepest part of your heart for Jesus;
Render Him Captain & never release it to any other.
No one will guard it any better, or steer it more perfectly.
Listen to His voice and follow His lead.

Understand that forgiveness often means letting go.
Letting go of the one(s) who hurt you.
Letting go of the pain & anger.
Letting go of the disappointment(s).
Letting go doesn’t mean you’re quitting!
Letting go means you deserve better and you’re moving on!

It’s okay to make mistakes!
You’re not bound to the mistakes you made,
You’re bound to your Forgiving Maker.
Let go of the guilt. Embrace Forgiveness.
Forgive yourself as easily as you forgive others.

Take time to rest
It’s okay to relax, even with looming “to do” lists.
It’s okay to steal away, and enjoy alone time.
It’s okay not to participate in everything you’re asked to do.
It’s okay to say “no”.

Saying no doesn’t make you a bad person.
Saying no doesn’t mean you’re weak.
Saying no doesn’t mean you’re incapable.
Saying no is the most powerful thing you can do for you!
Saying no frees you from being bound by expectations.
Just say no!

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How about you, friend?

Is there a falsehood you have embraced about yourself or rest that needs to be changed? I’d love to hear your story, or pray with you on your journey. Feel free to comment below, message me privately, or join us for Bonnie’s Whitespace Linkup.

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This post is part of a series entitled, “Journey to Rest”. 
Previous Posts:
Week 1

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You may purchase Finding Spiritual Whitespace, HERE.

This post is part of the, “Finding Spiritual Whitespace Blog Tour”
which I am honored to be a member,
along with a group of soulful, journeying kindreds.
To learn more or to join us, CLICK HERE!
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When Dreams Change

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I remember the moment as if it were yesterday.  Standing at the altar of our church, along with others, seeking God, with my hands lifted and heart open to His voice.  As clear as day, it was prophesied over me, that God would use my hands for His glory.

I am honored to have been invited to contribute on the God Sized Dreams Community.  Would you join me there to read the rest?

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Waiting for Help

As I walk this journey of rest (obedience), I find myself, for the first time, learning to ask for help.  I say learning, because I’ve always been one to set a goal, work at it and accomplish it, alone. My career is one where I am the sole admin in an office of engineers, machinists & assembly workers who rely on me for everything. I do it all & love doing it all. Yet in this season of rest, God is teaching me to ask and wait for help.

I think of the story of Sarai & Abram in Genesis 16.  God had promised Sarai & Abram that they would have a child.  They were getting old, so Sarai got impatient & insisted her maiden, Hagar sleep with Abram, in order to fulfill God’s promise.

{PRIDE} makes us question & doubt God’s promises.

{PRIDE} drives our minds to conger up ideas of how to make God’s promises come into play.

{PRIDE} turns God’s promises into curses (let me explain)

When Sarai doubted God’s promise & came up with an idea of how to make it happen, she turned the beautiful promise from God into a curse from God.

In Genesis 16:11-12, we read what the angel of the Lord spoke to Hagar, who was pregnant with Abram’s child & who as a result, Sarai now hated & sent away:

 The angel of the Lord also said to her:
“You are now pregnant

    and you will give birth to a son.
You shall name him Ishmael,[a]
    for the Lord has heard of your misery.
He will be a wild donkey of a man;
    his hand will be against everyone
    and everyone’s hand against him,
and he will live in hostility
    toward[b] all his brothers.”

Instead of the beautiful promise to have a child (Isaac), God put a curse on Abram & Hagar’s son, Ishmael; with whom the Muslim Religion was birthed & continues to be at war against God’s people.

Instead of waiting for help, trusting God’s promise & relying on Him to make it happen, Abram became the “father of many nations”, to which are forever at war (the curse).

How many times does God cry over us, when we impatiently make decisions that thwart his plans?

Waiting for help may not be easy, in our day to day lives, but if we don’t make a conscious decision to do so, we risk habitually reacting to the call of God in the same way, & potentially thwarting His plans for us.

psalm 30 18

This season of rest God has called me to is one requiring me to ask & wait for help.  Spiritual help came through my friend Bonnie Gray.

For the next several weeks, with God’s prompting, I will be reading & blogging through Bonnie’s book, “Finding Spiritual Whitespace-Awakening Your Soul To Rest”. Although I have no idea what God has in store for me, I’m truly looking forward to walking this restful season with you, my friend.

If you would like to join me on my reading journey, you may ENTER TO WIN a copy of her book (giveaway ends 6/3/14) or you may purchase it here.

With Love,
Satin

 

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